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So my attempt at being philosophical obviously failed miserably. *sigh* I might try that again sometime, but not before I leave in a week. I have a lot of packing to do. yikes. I'm sooo excited though. You wouldn't believe. I can't wait to go down there. I miss the Ballet Mag people so much. They are seriously the best people in the world. *sigh* anyways. i gotta go. maybe i'll get another post up here before i leave.

Rain.

So, I've never really liked the storm metaphor for times when God seems distant. I've always liked rain. Well, not always, but that's a different story. I guess I don't really like storms, but even when it's pouring and the wind is terrible and the thunder and the lightning are right overhead and crashing at the same time, I still find peace in the rain. Even tonight, I was tempted to run around in the rain like a fool. But that's not the point of this post. Standing in the rain is nice, even peaceful. So is running and dancing in it. Driving through it, however, is a totally different story.

I like narratives, so that's how I'm going to do this, then I'll follow up with an expansion of my meaning, K?

My sister and I were at a restaurant visiting my best friend who works there when my dad called us. He told us that bad weather was on our way and that we should head home pretty quickly. We finished eating and paid, my friend walked us out to the car, and my sister handed me her keys, she didn't have her glasses, and it was getting dark so I had to drive. The wind was already starting to pick up as we got into her car and started to drive away. Dark clouds were forming in the west and the lightning was pretty awesome. It was the kind that shoots down in spikes and seems deadly and alive. I was a little nervous, cause I don't like thunderstorms and the wind was continuing to get stronger. The road we were on was traveling east to west, and the wind was blowing north to south, so driving was difficult. I decided that I'd drive slowly, not only cause you can only ever drive 40 on that particular road, but also because I didn't want to lose control and crash my sister's car. After about 10 minutes of driving, it started raining. Not too hard, but I flicked on the windshield wipers. I was still only driving about 40 mph at this point, and I was annoying the people driving behind me. As we kept driving the rain got harder. Pretty soon it was hard to see, the wind was trying to blow us all over the road, and the fastest I was willing to drive was 35 mph in a 50 mph zone. The people behind me were probably getting pretty upset, and they were driving in that one spot where their headlights catch your side view mirror and shine right into your face. I was getting more nervous as we drove on, but my sister and I kept chatting, and the Pirates of the Caribbean soundtrack was still playing. I was holding pretty tight to the steering wheel, and occasionally yelling at the car behind us, cause I was still driving slowly. It was really hard to see now, and I was frustrated with oncoming traffic, cause their headlights would glare off the water on the road and I couldn't see any of the lines. The real adventure hadn't started yet, though. The light where I was supposed to turn was out cause of the storm. I missed the turn. I didn't even see the road until I noticed the fire station across the street. Fortunately, I still knew how to get home, but it was REALLY raining now, and I could barely see the lane lines. I got into the left turn lane and took a "Michigan Left", though I'm not sure if it was even legal at that place in the roads. But I drove really slowly and managed to get back on track. It was pouring even harder now, but I didn't notice the rain so much anymore. I wished that the lightning would just stay lit so that I could see better. Every time a car drove toward me, the glare off the road and my windshield was blinding, and the person behind me was tailgating me. We kept driving, and I noticed something interesting. A tiny litte toad hopped across the road in front of us, I think I ran it over, and I felt kinda bad about that, but it couldn't be helped. Somehow the toad was reassuring. Don't ask me why. But I kept seeing them. I was pretty scared, cause the light was out where we missed the turn, and we hadn't seen any lights in between there and where were then. Then the next light was up and running, so I felt better. The most nerve wracking part of the trip for me came when we were almost home. There's a bend in the road, and there's a light at the end of it. There it splits into three lanes; the left turn lane, the straight lane, and the right turn lane. I couldn't see the lane lines or the stop line cause the rain was too hard, the person behind me was riding on my tail, and I was seriously freaked out. Enough that I verbalized it for the first time in the trip. I was almost on the verge of tears. But we got through all right. The rest of the way home was straight road, the rain was still pouring, and the headlights still glared, but it wasn't as bad as it had been. We finally got home safe. Just a bit ago, I went outside to trow some trash out. It was all peaceful. No sign that a huge storm had just been through except for the wet grass and cement. The calm after the storm.

So that was a lovely piece of nothing. Or was it. This is my expansion. Basically, that was a giant metaphor. Everything started out looking pretty cool, but as we kept going, it kept getting rougher and rougher and rougher till it seemed like it couldn't get any worse. And then it got better.

Lots of times that's how life is. You think "This is it, NOW I've hit rock bottom" but you keep getting lower. Along the way there are twists and turns that you didn't expect, and there are toads to cheer you up, and just before it gets better, it usually gets much, much worse. But the God always comes through and straightens the path and gets you home safe, out of the rain.

Today

I went shopping today. I bought almost everything i need for Ballet Mag. Except shorts, cause they don't make shorts that i can wear. which is frustrating. anyways, sometime i'm gonna post something important/that makes sense. what do y'all want to hear about. I've only actually thought about posting about two topics, tell me which you want to hear about more, maybe i'll come up with more later.

Topic #1) Boys

Topic #2) Pessimism

gimme your input.

So....

19 days till i leave for ballet mag! i'm gonna go shopping today to get some stuff for it. :) i'm excited about having a computer that works, and an iPod that will hold all my music. yep, that's all for now.

first post

So, since i have a gmail account now, i figured it'd be easier to get a blog with this account. i know i don't post often, but i'ma try and be better about that maybe? Idk, it can be interesting. So, new facts: I HAVE A NEW LAPTOP!! She's a macbook, and her name is Amelia Rose, after my two favourite of the Doctor's companions from Doctor Who. Rose Tyler, with the Tenth Doctor and Amelia Pond with the Eleventh. Uhm... so far that's all I got for now. Love y'all!